My body felt like my blood is being drained and my heart is like being squeezed so hard that I can't feel calmness anymore these past few days. My journey towards a life as a final year student really rip away those freedom I had when I was doing my internship. I wish to sleep but I couldn't. I eat but it doesn't satisfy my hunger. I bathe but my body feels some sorta "flaming aura" that burst so vigorously that I might explode unpredictably.
I need somebody to talk.. somebody who can understands me. Sometimes I feel that I'm just a doormat that once I've served my purpose, I'll be forgotten. It's not that I don't appreciate people around me, I just feel that sometimes when I feel alone and need somebody to talk and have this conversation, I couldn't find that person and just keep it to myself.
I know now it's not the right sweet time to think negatively but I can't help it. I've been enduring for so long but yet I'm still drowning without direction.
I need somebody to talk.. somebody who can understands me. Sometimes I feel that I'm just a doormat that once I've served my purpose, I'll be forgotten. It's not that I don't appreciate people around me, I just feel that sometimes when I feel alone and need somebody to talk and have this conversation, I couldn't find that person and just keep it to myself.
I know now it's not the right sweet time to think negatively but I can't help it. I've been enduring for so long but yet I'm still drowning without direction.
I need to escape from this uninvited feeling... :(
3 comments:
your blog very beautiful and make me excited. Congratulation!!
>.< I can relate to the 'doormat' feeling. I feel that nearly all the time but I try not to remind myself of that feeling. If not, for sure got news about some girl commiting suicide already 8D;;;
All we can do right now is just try and find the positive side of the feeling and distract ourselves from thinking too much about it. I find venting into journals helps making you 'see' the problem and you don't keep it bottled up inside you.
Cheer up >w<~<3
[megat] - Thanks :)
[DS] - Huuu.. Hope we can overcome this sem for good. All this ASS-ignments really spoil the mood ~_~
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