Sometimes reality can hurt your soul...

Having this silent moment in your life is really... frightening

I'm somewhere near the entrance to a new phase of life, which is adulthood, but both of my feet couldn't stand steadily to embrace it. How many of you are dealing with this kinda situation, when every day you woke up in the morning or maybe late afternoon, staring blanky on the ceiling and end up spend your whole day in front of your computer? I'm used to do it back when I'm still studying and it was a bliss to have lazy days sometimes, but now since I've graduated, this lifestyle doesn't befitting to my current span. I'm tired doing nothing everyday and this kinda lifestyle is rotting slowly inside me.

I don't know how to explain it. I'm in a very deep dilemma. Seeing other people who are more successful made me feel so small and weak. My previous work life was screwed up which made my confidence and motivation went down really bad and I really need a good punch in the head right now to gather my self confidence back.